Stories for people affected by MS, by people affected by MS.
MS is different for everyone - we hope this blog reflects this.
Depression and emotional symptoms of MS often go undiagnosed.
I think I am depressed – and, I think I know why. For the past couple of months my condition has been deteriorating. This morning I am unable to wash myself or hold the electric toothbrush steady with both hands. My feet, fingers and legs feel like they have been given a numbing injection from the dentist. They ache all the time.
My doctor peered at me over his half-moon glasses. “I am signing you off work”, he said gravely. “You have to sell your business and you have to stop. You know that.”
For a good long time now, I’ve taken one month every year to go off the drink (for health reasons, for self-reflective reasons, and simply to make sure that I could).
Something is wrong, my legs feel weaker than usual. I woke in the night having a spasm in my leg. I spent most of yesterday resting so I know I haven't done too much.
I check my pill box. Last night's pills are still there.
Every day is different. I would much rather every day was the same.
In a series of blogs, clinical neuropsychologist Dr Annie Hickox answers your questions about the emotional or psychological effects of MS, from anxiety to sleep problems. The first is about mood and MS.
Why does my mood change from calm and easy going to stressed and lacking in patience within minutes? It can then switch back just as easily. Could my fatigue be contributing? How can I track the triggers and help control my emotions?
“But do you see yourself as disabled?”
I looked down at my mobility scooter. “Um, yes” I replied, slightly confused. “I’m definitely disabled”.
Before MS, I didn’t really have to deal with pain much; it was mainly a case of taking the odd paracetamol for a headache.
People often comment on how great it is that I live my life to the full.
Truth be told, my MS diagnosis six years ago was a turning point. I realised I’d been trundling along. Constantly putting things off "for another day".