I was diagnosed with MS in 1988, but for a long time I felt like if I ignored it, it wasn’t real.
I was at the height of my career – reaching over 11 million viewers with my show ‘Wayne Dobson - A Kind of Magic’ on Saturday night TV – when rumours started going around that I was on drink and drugs. I had little choice but to come out and tell people that it was the MS. But disabled people didn’t fit into the showbiz picture back then, and my TV career pretty much ended overnight.
I look back on when I was a high profile magician and I feel like I’m looking at a different person. I remember it all so well, but it doesn’t seem real. Now, I can’t remember what it’s like to not be affected by MS.
Magic has helped me to manage my MS
I was given a magic set when I was nine-years-old, but it wasn’t until I was 14 when I did my first ‘Egg in the bag’ trick that I knew I wanted to make a living out of it!
Magic is my all-time passion and it’s helped me to manage my MS. I have to keep my brain very active, so spend my days at my computer creating magic for magicians all over the world.
I work every minute detail out in my head… I have a strange brain that computes everything, and my attention to detail is quite frightening! Once I know all the details my business partner interprets it for me over Skype – I couldn’t do without voice activation on my computer and Skype is my lifeline! Not only does it allow me to work, but it keeps me connected with family and friends.
Creating magic is a very niche market, but it keeps me out of trouble, and my tricks are sold worldwide.
I’ve been self-isolating for years
I’m paralysed from the neck down and rely on four visits a day from carers, so I’m used to self-isolating and staying at home – I’ve been doing it for nearly 20 years! And, in all honestly, you get used to it.
I am a very positive and upbeat person, but I do feel quite anxious about the coronavirus. At the start I didn’t feel like it was real, but now it is it makes me feel scared. You don’t know where it’s going to go, and if I got it I don’t know how my body would respond to it.
My carers are full of compassion
My unsung heroes are my carers, who are so selfless and full of compassion. They continue to make the bad days good, and the good days even better!
A lot of people say that I am brave in the way I handle my condition, however I don't consider myself brave – brave people are people that have a choice, like running into a burning building putting their own life at risk to rescue others. I have no choice, well I do actually, I can either be miserable and constantly acting like the world owes me a favour or I can just accept the way it is and get on with it and be happy, I choose the latter!
Right now I don't know what's happening in this world however I do know for sure that in 12 weeks’ time there will be some horrendous haircuts looking like burst JIFFY bags!