Wednesday 26th November 2003

My name is Lisa and I'm 27 up until 4 years ago I was the sort of person who you would see on the street that was enjoying life to the fullest out every weekend with my friends. Today I'm copying with an illness that has changed my life. I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis in the year 2000, and hell was that a shock! But like many people I am learning that it isn't the end but the beginning. I was on medication for my MS up to three months ago but now we have got the go ahead to try for a family so that will be my new start. 

Thursday 27th November 2003

I woke up this morning with this horrible feeling as I have got a nurse coming round to see me about my bladder, they say this is all normal with MS but can I ever get use to all the tests. I feel sick today just don't want to answer the door, want to be left alone. But I know it will help as the doctors have told me its in my mind, well this nurse will be able to tell me if this is true. Thank god it wasn't! Again The MS! seems just when you put it to the back of your mind POP there it is again. So tonight I know it will be hell sleeping with all the things that will be going through my mind I'll be lucky to get 3 hours.... 

Friday 28th November 2003

Yes I was right no sleep, still I will be able to have sleep in the afternoon as I have the house to myself.
Friday's a the day that reminds me of when I could go out with my mates and enjoy myself but not now. But must lift my chin up and think of the future after all there maybe an arrival soon. Many people don't agree with having children when you have MS but I think it shouldn't stop you from living your life! Why shouldn't I have children like the next person? So one day soon I'll be a mum. My legs and back were bad today, just couldn't seem to get my legs to WAKE UP! My husband was glad to come home from work when I'm ill he worries for me that way I don't panic as he says! 

Saturday 29th November 2003

Today my family and me are going to attempt to go shopping!!! AHH! I have to take my scooter as I just can't walk far at all, and having it gives me some independence, which is great! The shops where really busy and the people are so rude. Peep peep! goes my hooter! I got too angry and ended up coming home but if I'm honest I'm glad as I was really tired. Sometimes I just feel no different and push myself too much when I know I shouldn't! My family has been fantastic through all the things I've been through. I have a great husband and I don't know what I'd do without him. 

Sunday 30th November 2003

Oh my god I should have gone shopping yesterday! I have woken up and I'm having real trouble with my legs and to make things worse I have a terrible headache. But I have my husband to help so today all I'll do is rest. Last night my legs were really cold and I even had my really sexy socks on but this didn't make any difference. My mum phoned, she is going to come get me and make dinner so I don't have to worry because as much as my hubby try's, the toast isn't the same as my mums cooking. Well today I have realised how great my family are.

Life goes on as they say, mine just keeps getting more interesting. With Christmas around the corner my life is always on the go, but for the better onward and upward....